For the party, I gathered some photographs for a slideshow. It killed me, of course, but thanks to the pictures I now I see him in my mind's eye as he was prior to the diagnosis. Those pictures shelved the images of muscle wasting, facial bloating, hair loss, gathered over nearly a year. It's his legs and the backs of his heels I see the most, though. Like he's standing over there, just by the garage. Walking away, perhaps. The back of his head.
Mum sleeps on his side of the bed. She constructs a pillow wall to hug. She feels like he'll back from a business trip soon. God, she's going to to be so lonely. She already is, I think, though W and I are still here.
I'm going through a weird period of OK. This is life now without Dad, without his disease. This is what it looks like. We just get on with it. I don't know if this phase will last.